My check-in

Hey people who read this blog (-5 people), I'm... checking in. So, does anyone remember our 'This I Believe' essays? I do. This is all coming to me as I'm writing (plus probably a little editing at the end) soo... just kinda go along with my informal 'This I Believe'... paragraph.



Today, I read a very very wise thing. I read that (basically... I'm not actually going to quote this) there is a time to reflect and there is a time to recover, and that they are normally two separate times (check out our Humanities teachers' blog). I believe in recovery and reflection.



At night, I often lay in bed and think about my day, start to finish. I think about all the embarrassing moments in my day and all the generally stupid things with bad outcomes that I've done, and what I can learn from them. I learn some pretty interesting things. Today actually, I learned that even when you're going on the elevator and then straight into the pool, you should be fully dressed anyway because you never know when you're going to be stuck in there with a creepy guy all the way down, and you also never know when the pool is going to be closed, and you never know when you're going to be stuck in an elevator with the same creepy guy because he forgot his phone. You never know.



Anyway, what I've realized is that recovery and reflection are some of the most important things you can do in your life. I live in the the moment (I know this sounds totally random, but wait a second, I have a point!), very in the moment. It often leads to me being totally embarrassed by myself in the past when I reflect on it. If I think of my last two 'This I Believe' essays, I still get slightly embarrassed, because now, the future-almost-sophomore year Rosemary looks back at the little eighth grade Rosie, and thinks about how ridiculous she was. But if I really think about it a bit more, I realize that I wasn't ridiculous... I was just acting in the moment. Recovering and reflecting also allows me to pull the lessons I need for life out of my past without being angry at the people and situations that gave me these outcomes.

Basically, what I'm trying to say here is that everyone who reads this (-5 people) should think about what they've done today, how it affects them and anyone else who was with them, and then go back even farther and try and see how different situations in your life have affected you and others. That's all.

Speaking of the past, my present is way cooler. WAY COOLER. I have some amazing close friends, and tons of awesome acquaintances. Everyone I meet has a great attitude and accepts me for my real, raw self (very little of me is uncensored. I say what I want and what I mean, and I do the things that I want to do. I'm a recipe for disaster, I know, but I have very little negativity, so it's great.). I am still single, but it's not because I don't want to be and just can't seem to get out of that situation, I'm actually just okay with it. I was so overwhelmed by friends and amazing people that I felt like my life was full. I'm still getting A's in all my classes, but I'm somehow not a nerd. Right now, I'm in Puerto Rico with one of my amazing close friends, but I can't wait to come home (Amherst home) and I can't wait for school to start.