Things I wish I knew back then

You're playing a dangerous game
Acting so grown
Just a lil girl
Quivering in her high heels
Hiding beneath your makeup
Remember that you've been warned
About how dangerous it is
to run with the big dogs
Maybe one day you'll come running to me
I'll keep my I told you so's to myself
And I'll wish that I wasn't so right all the time
Then we could sit together
Like old times
Sit and play cards


I don't want to grow up
Lets make a pact
Pinkies intact
Like peter pan
To remain forever
A child


Couldn't wait to grow up
When I was a child
Could wait to show off
When I was a child
Went around pretending I was grown
When I was a child
Missed out on childhood
When I was a child
When I'm older looking back at this
I know I'll laugh and say
There's that poem I wrote
When I was a child

A contradiction

We start out like blocks of clay

Ready to be molded

Be sculpted

By our experiences

All we've been through

Helps us grow

But does not define us

Unlike Clay

We can refuse to be twisted

No matter how hard they tug and pull

What way we're being pushed

We have freedom of will

Inevitable

I Lived most my life without you
I turned out fine
Never made the mistake of thinking
You were mine
To have for eternity
That you'd never leave
Of course not
I'm not dumb
Lived life long enough to know
Everything at some time ends


No matter how much I wish
You would stay
At some point
Like All the others
You will run away

I can stop
You can drop
Of the face of the earth
I wont shed a tear
I dont need you
My new mantra
Echoing inside my head
I will repeat it
Till I believe it
Till it's true
And I truly no longer
Need you

Ramblingss from my subconscious ;]

Its not fair
Everyone is changing
Yet i remain the same
Like nature has forgotten
To change me
From a bud to a rose
My mentality remains the same
Even as i grow taller
Despite all efforts, inside
I remain a child

You slipped in unnoticed
Into my life
I dont know when you got here but
I would notice if you left

Found some poems i wrote a while back, i was....angry

I gave you everything you asked for
And asked nothing in return
In the end you left anyway
Heartbroken as i was
Some lessons you only have to learn once
Sometimes
people don't deserve a second chance
But like an idiot
I ask if we can try this again
I wonder how many time i have to learn this lesson
Before it finally sinks in


Will i always be seen this way?
its like im a welcome mat
yeah welcome home
wipe your feet
Why the hell would i mind dirt on my face
Of course i love being stepped all over
Till i'm muddy, filthy
And of course you want someone-
I mean "something" newer
No i dont mind
Choose another girl and
Start the cycle again


Because I will always be here
You can ignore me for the time being
But when there's no one else left
And I'm your only option
You choose to see me